5 lbs in 5 Days!

 September 16, 2023

Weight 153.1   Sleep 9 hours!!!!

Whoop whoop.....5 lbs in 5 days.  I feel so much better.  Less swollen.  Pants not as tight.  This motivates me to keep going.  I haven't been starving myself either.  Weird when I choose to eat all my points  and even a couple of weeklies I loose more than when I restrict my points to the low end.  Very thankful, I still have a good metabolism.  When I actually try, the weight comes off pretty easy.  I am also one to not be sedentary either.  I do think I border on ADHD.  I usually don't like to be still.  I like to go go go.  Guess that is way I chose the profession I did. I like to move around alot.  

Reflections of day 5 (yesterday).

Crazy busy 12 hour shift.  Because my younger coworkers don't know me well or trust my nursing care yet, I tend to get some of the busiest and "taskier" assignents.  I was on my feet all day caring for my patients and had to finish my charting after shift.  My younger coworkers are sometimes clueless about how to be a good coworker. Not only was I crazy busy with my patients, but I had a very inquisitive student nurse (he was helpful though) and my neighbor need help with her admission.  I was trying to catch up my charting and she also needed an IV.  Weird she came to me, when my charge was just sitting there for 45 minutes chatting with a friend.  I put one in for her, which then made me have to stay after to catch up my charting.  

I ate well during my shift, but didn't hydrate well due to being so busy.  I like being busy to a point.  Makes the shift fly by, but don't like getting off late.  When I got home, I realized I hadn't eating enough and was starving.  I made myself a turkey sandwwhich and some healthing airpopped popcorn.  I was full.

I sat there watching TV and got the feeling I wanted to go off the rails.  I wanted to eat my work frstrations away.  I know I did a freaking good job yesterday, but the feeling of rejection from not being in the "valued" elite group was bubbling up again.  Noise.....I told myself.  Just noise.  Karma will come around or maybe not.  I can only choose my reaction to things.  I busted my butt and gave great nursing care.  I will not derail myself over dumb junior high cliques.  I have about 15 monthes left of my contract sign on bonus.  If things don't improve, I can move on in Jan. 2025.  I can hang on til then and I will not let myself use eating as a coping mechanism..

Love this quote "Treat everyone with kindness and respect, even those who are rude to you-not because they are nice, but because YOU are.  And do your best to be thankful for the rude and difficult people too-the serve as great reminders of how not to be.