Ground Zero

September 11, 2023

Weight 158.5 (40 lbs to go).   Could have been worse I guess.  Won't start feeling good again til below 140. I wish I wasn't so number focused. 

Sleep 5.5 hours.....not enough.  Coffee and an energy to get through the 12 hour shift in front of me.  Very tired from the trip over the weekend.  Miraculously Ram and I had no fighting over driving this trip.  

Still feel like I have a food coma hangover.  Not even hungry, but I will eat breakfast on my unit before starting because I may not come up for air til the afternoon.  I am pretty sure when I complete my sign on bonus contract, I will move back to my next of the woods.  Maybe Texas Children's.  I have a bit of a toxic work culture.  I will try and make the best of it though.  I love working with kids and they pay me well.  I will force water down today. I am hoping to hit the 140s in the next two weeks which is doable.  Once I start what I eat, I lose easy.  Ahhh, the struggle is real.

Day 1 recap.  Wasn’t hungry most of the day.  Have 23 Weight Watchers each day.  Only ate 21 points.  Work really distracts me from overeating.  I have so much going on I rarely take my full 30 minutes.  I also found eating healthy gave me more energy.  I wish I had energy to workout before or after work, but I do close to 10,000 steps in my 12 hour shift.  I did manage to get 6 glasses of water in and multiple bathroom trips.  I also didn’t drink a soda either.  Need to improve my veggie intake and get away from processed foods.

Motivated to do this.  Came home and not even remotely tempted to over eat or comfort myself  with food. 

Excited to see what the scale shows in the morning.  

I need to remember…..not tastes as good as the feeling of being thin.

I know some of you think that  158.5 isn’t bad, but for me it is.  My joints hurt and I have no clothes that  fit.  The struggle is real people. The struggle  is Real.