The Plateau

 Sept. 15, 2023 (am)

Reflections of day 4.

Almost down 5lbs. Lost another pound.  Now the real work begins.  I am fully aware that most of this weight loss was water weight.

Starting to be hungry more.  Started yesterday by being floated to NICU.  Maybe the stress of the unknown made me eat my snack before I even went up to the floor.

Had 3 very cute babies in the infant care 2 area.  Mostly there to feed and grow.  Actually worked with people my own own who were kind, respectful, helpful, and didn't talk down to me or treat me like an idiot.  They were super welcoming and it made me want to transfer there, but they only hire to nights.

They had a snack cart there.  I was tempted to make poor choices, but chose skinny popcorn.  I really wanted some chocolate on the desk, but said no thanks.

Went to my unit for lunch.  The elite group was there, and it was super uncomfortable.  Only Clem talked to me.  I didn't even finish my salad and went back early from lunch.

Great day in NICU.  When I got home I wanted to eat my feelings.  I might have had a few extra Triscuits.  I love my patients just wish my coworkers were more kind to the "outsiders."


As I start today, I will focus on being the best dam nurse I can for my patients and families. I will drink my water and eat healthy for myself.  I will start trying to find a healthier environment for my mental well being.  In the meantime, focus my patients.

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