Jill’s Journal (blog on my weight struggles and journey to being the healthiest I can be)

 September 22, 2023 In the middle of a three day stretch.  I wish I could find time to workout on days I work.  12 hours plus 2 hours of commuting doesn't allow for it. Hit a plateau again.  I do need to increase fruits, veggies, and protein.  I read that restrictive diet can be a cause of osteoporosis.  Trying to improve my bone health.  Man I don't want to be a frail old lady.   I do sleep better and feel better.  Hopefully less snoring as I lighten up. Abs still hurt from my Barre class.  Especially when I sneeze. Thinking of getting back to running more.  No more marathons.  10 K is perfect.  Half will be if I want a challenge. Planning to be able to fit into my wedding dress by my 35th anniversary in December.  I do feel so much better eating healthier!

 September 20, 2023 Went to class yesterday in the med center.  Had a big breakast with egg beaters and peppers scrambled and toast.  At the class, someone brought in breeakfast tacos. They smelled so good.  Dang, I had already eaten breakfast. As much as I wanted them, I refrained.   Towards the evening, I could feel my cravings (wasn't hungry) just wanted to comfort myself with food.  I drank a ton of water and colored in my zen book while I watched TV.  Finally went to bed without caving.  Slept a full 8 hours!!!!!  Went to Barre class at the gym today.  I will be sore tomorrow.  To my suprise, I lost another 0.6 lbs.  So close to getting into the 140s.  Soon I will be able to wear some of my clothes.  Can't wait til they become comfortable. Trying intermittent fasting today with my Weight Watch.  I ate all my point from 8:30-2:30 so a 18hour fast til tomorrow morning.   Feeling empowered. ...

 September 18, 2018 Not too sore today from that 10K.  I felt so good about completing it.  I forgot how great it felt to have a medal around your neck. Scrubs feeling less tight. More energy.  Becoming more motivated. Maybe even considering doing another 10K, and train for it. Work was the usual,  Trying to keep myself in a positive head space. Got a late admission and very little help with the patient when it arrived, so I had to stay after once again to chart.  I had company though and got to release some frustrations with them.  I think I like my commute because it gives me time to leave work at work.  The drivers in Houston are so aggressive.  I really want to move to a smaller city .that has pretty views. The beach? The mountains?  Close to a lake?  Ready to slow my life down some.  I plan to continue to work as long as I can, but not at the maddening pace of the medical center.  They do pay me extremely well, but it...

 September 17, 2023 Weight:152.9  Sleep 5 hours.....not enough. Had a good relaxing day yesterday.  Went for a walk and just took it easy watching football.  Really nervous about the 10 K.  Only ran 3 times in the last month.  Least my nutrition has been  on point this week. Got up at dark thirty today.  Ughhh...what was I thinking.  Tried not to overthink it.   Got down to Keemah about six am.  Race started and hung with my running buddy who has been training for a full marathon for the first mile.  We got to the gianormous bridge and halfway up decided I shouldn't  kill myself trying to keep up with her..  I walked and ran the rest of it.  When you are on an out-and-back  course, you really have no options but to finsih or call an uber which couldn't get through all the road closures.I accepted that I was not 25 anymore and just took my time.  I had two hours and could walk the entire course if I...

 September 16, 2023 Weight 153.1   Sleep 9 hours!!!! Whoop whoop.....5 lbs in 5 days.  I feel so much better.  Less swollen.  Pants not as tight.  This motivates me to keep going.  I haven't been starving myself either.  Weird when I choose to eat all my points  and even a couple of weeklies I loose more than when I restrict my points to the low end.  Very thankful, I still have a good metabolism.  When I actually try, the weight comes off pretty easy.  I am also one to not be sedentary either.  I do think I border on ADHD.  I usually don't like to be still.  I like to go go go.  Guess that is way I chose the profession I did. I like to move around alot.   Reflections of day 5 (yesterday). Crazy busy 12 hour shift.  Because my younger coworkers don't know me well or trust my nursing care yet, I tend to get some of the busiest and "taskier" assignents.  I was on my feet all day caring...

 Sept. 15, 2023 (am) Reflections of day 4. Almost down 5lbs. Lost another pound.  Now the real work begins.  I am fully aware that most of this weight loss was water weight. Starting to be hungry more.  Started yesterday by being floated to NICU.  Maybe the stress of the unknown made me eat my snack before I even went up to the floor. Had 3 very cute babies in the infant care 2 area.  Mostly there to feed and grow.  Actually worked with people my own own who were kind, respectful, helpful, and didn't talk down to me or treat me like an idiot.  They were super welcoming and it made me want to transfer there, but they only hire to nights. They had a snack cart there.  I was tempted to make poor choices, but chose skinny popcorn.  I really wanted some chocolate on the desk, but said no thanks. Went to my unit for lunch.  The elite group was there, and it was super uncomfortable.  Only Clem talked to me.  I didn't even finish ...